Oops. I definately overreacted. Why is it that you can suddenly think your whole world (okay, relationship) has come to an end just because someone doesn’t pay you the attention they usually do?! How narcissistic…
Well, he just had other things on his mind. He was stressed. But what was I to think (apart from that it is all about me)! Suddenly, for a few days, he stops calling me (and is distant and almost rude when I call him), decides to give my offer to come over ‘a miss’ and replies to text messages coldly and harshly. It wouldn’t be such a problem if it weren’t a complete backflip from his usual behaviour. Still, I feel a little silly, a little drama queen-ish. Ah well.
I am supposed to be organising an event that is coming up soon. I’ve organised people to attend, helped out along the way etc, only now I have decided I don’t want to go. Am I obliged? It isssss a charity thing… I don’t feel comfortable with the people who will be there. I recently had the realisation that many of my ‘friends’ aren’t actually my friends at all. They are my ex’s friends – they were only friends with me when I was with him. So that’s over. I shouldn’t feel obliged… they obviously didn’t feel obliged to come to my birthday.
If I want to keep a pattern with my current mood/thoughts of the day, I should probably just do want I want, and not worry about anyone else. Me, Me, Me. Hey, I already admitted to having a narcissistic day 
